Monday, March 10, 2014

Broken Computer and a Breaking Heart

In case you haven't noticed...I haven't been around! Our computer has only worked about one week of this entire year. We were saving for a new one but the money isn't quite there to buy it yet, so here I sit. Typing on my ipad.

I've been working away on my goals for the year. It's going well, but man, this sure has been a tough year on me emotionally. Dan has started a new business and its been so very busy. I think he worked every single day in February. Brighton got pneumonia again, poor guy. I'm so happy to report he's doing better than ever now! February slipped by and it felt as though I was watching from the outside. There were so many sleepless nights and days I just had to push through, by the time it was over I don't think I knew what in the world happened!

My wonderful grandparents are both in care of hospice. As of 2 weeks ago they gave them both 6 months to live. As of last week they gave my grandpa 1 month.

I can hardly bring myself to think about it. They have both played a huge role in my life. Especially with their comfort and prayers during my long, hard years with Jaiden. My mind goes back to the scent of their home, my grandpa's vioce singing, "oh my darlin' oh my darlin' oh my darlin' clementine."  I can smell my grandma's cooking and hear the pressure cooker on the stove. I can see her worn bible laying on the table with a cup of coffee. I know this is a natural part of life but my heart aches. I can't even type this without tears streaming down my face.

We stopped in to visit them a few days ago. My grandpa (though he can't speak anymore) was thrilled we were there and hugged me for the longest time. We will go and visit them as much as we can until we can't anymore.

It's spring break around here. We are Spring cleaning and hanging out with friends all week. The sun is out and the birds are chirping. This is such a delightful time of year, I refuse to miss it! The boys and I "went" on a trip around the world this morning. Did you read Ann Voskamp's weekend blog? There are stunning pictures that take you on a mini vacation. You should really check it out! We had coffee, hot chocolate, and a globe in hand. It sure was a nice way to start the week!

They are now in the den playing blokus and monopoly...waiting on me to make some lunch. I better get to it!


Heather said...

Well, I'm glad that you wrote when you could then! So sorry to hear about your grandparents. I loved mine fiercely and know your pain. So thankful for the amazing memories though. I don't know what I'd do if I hadn't grown up with such loving people. Hang in there, Friend! And, enjoy Spring :)

Little Wife on the Prairie said...

I haven't been reading many blogs lately but I just knew I had to catch up with you. Love to you sweet friend. I hope your world is beautiful!

Tricia said...

Thinking about you today, sweet friend. It's been a long time since either of us have done any blogging. Miss reading about your family.


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