Sometimes I find myself extremely frustrated and a little bit annoyed with some of my inconsistencies. I'm sure you've been there as well.... Right? Now I really have been praying and working on life and believe me, life has been good, BUT it seems when I feel like I get certain things under control like home school or cleaning/laundry (yes, we've gone a few weeks with a nicely kept home and laundry done daily We have a routine down and by george it's getting done!) I gradually lose the grasp I may (sorta) have on other things. Things as simple as quality time with my boys.
For some reason lately I keep having this thought...."what if this was the last summer, fall, winter, spring you have here on earth? what would you want today and tomorrow to look like? what would you spend your thoughts on? what would you choose to worry about or let get you down? who would you be?"
Now, I understand that may be a bit depressing, but I don't think of it that way at all. Instead I see an opportunity. None of us are guaranteed tomorrow, so how will we use this opportunity?
After thinking about it, I choose to love.
How will I choose to show love to those around me? How will I show love to my boys?
*Praying. Praying for those I love, for those in pain, for those who need love. Praying.
*Time. Giving my time to God, my family, and others. Serving with a cheerful heart, doing things my children love...even when I don't feel I have the time, and visiting those who need company.
* Teaching my children. This is why I love homeschooling so much...the whole world is ours! We spend our mornings in the company or The Creator of the Universe! We travel back in time to Ancient Egypt. We stamp our passports and hop on a flight to Italy. We build things, we watch caterpillars turn into butterflies, we visit the elderly, we paint like the impressionists, we listen to the many sounds of the orchestra, we take hikes, we go to Cub Scouts, we cook, and we meet others for field trips and holiday parties.
Yes. This is how I would love. I would spend my last year in love with my Creator, with His world, and with His children. I would do what I was called to do.
In fact, that's how I want to live my life. Whether this is the last year or not, it sure would provide for a purposeful life. A life filled to the top with love, living just the way He called us to live.