So hard in fact, after the 6 hour episode with Autism, (yesterdays post and yes, it continued after the post) I cried, and cried some more. In fact I stayed up by myself and cried and prayed myself to sleep. I was DREADING maybe waking up to day to the same thing.
I got so much encouragement through my facebook friends it was AMAZING, so no, all the tears weren't sad tears. Most were thankful and relieved tears that even though I feel SO alone at times, I am in fact NOT.
My friend Whitney wrote this verse for me and I am in love with it.
But he said to me "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power rest on me. - 2 Corinth 12:9
His grace IS sufficient for me and His power IS made perfect in my weakness.
My husband (so stinkin sweet) wrote: AU stinks, sorry for the tough day. I know this doesn't change what happened, but that boy adores you tons. You are his saving grace. Tough task no doubt, God doesn't promise to deliver us from but through these times. AU is such a challenge and I HATE it and HATE that is has got a grip on J because it causes problems he doesn't mean to cause. I feel your pain and I'm so sorry. Here's to a victorious Tuesday. You are the beloved princess and daughter of the Most High God. He loves you and cherishes you deeply and through faith, the trying time will decrease and the joy and laughter will increase. I love you my sweet Jeana, but more importantly you daddy loves you, He is God and you just happen to be the apple of His eye. Daddy's girl! Smile on love =]
This is just a glimpse of the 15 or so friends who gave their love, support, prayers, and encouragement. I am SO very thankful!
I want to leave you with some lyrics to a Natasha Bedingfield song called Happy. They WILL make you smile. In fact, you should go listen to it...it will make you dance too!
Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there's so many BEAUTIFUL reasons I have to be HAPPY!